I decided to go on my computer since everyone was out.
I went onto twitter. I had a lot of followers more than I did last time. I was surprised. I scrolled down. I saw a lot of comments.
@Allison_Drenchyyy♥3: You suck! Go die in a hole. No one likes you. I bet Justin is dating you all for a bet !! You stupid slut
@Allison_Drenchyy♥3: Slut. Pig. Whore. Back off my man! He's mine.
@Allison_Drenchyy♥3: I don't know who you are, I don't care who you are. But if you really are dating Justin, just back off. Because No one likes it, no one supports it and everyone hates you. Okay? Got it? Good.
There were some sweet ones. But like Harry Styles said; Why do you hate me? What have I done?
I saw a few sweet ones. But that didn't really do any help
I was now in tears. Why? Because these people don't know me, they don't know that I love Justin. They don't have the right to judge who I am. I haven't slept with a guy. Justin is my first love. Never have I learned to love till I met Justin.
I turned the TV on and saw the news. "Justin and his new girl. Allison Drench.....yada yada yada.....blah blah blah."
I just didn't want to talk about this right now. I hugged a pillow to my chest and knees. Stupid Bullies.
The only way I was ever to get pain out of me was by cutting. But I promised myself to never do it again since I met Ryan and Chaz.
Oh well. I grabbed my razor that I always keep, just in case. I went into the bathroom.
I made one cut. Ahh it felt good, the blood dripped down my skin and onto the floor. two. I was being careful not to hit a vein. After the fourth cut I stopped. I wiped the blood off the floor and wrapped my arm. I put my hoodie on and went back into the living room.
After a few hours Justin came in the living room and sat by me. "Hey Alli." He said and then kissed my cheek. I smiled at him and back at the TV
"Whaddup?" He asked me I looked at him and shook my head. "N-nothing." I stuttered. Ahh crap.
"N-nothing" She stuttered. I licked my lips and looked her straight in the eyes.
"I'm going to ask you again. Allison What's up?" She just looked at me. "I said nothing."
Her voice was shaky. I could tell she was lying her face has that tell. "Allison, whats going on?"
She just shook her head. "Nothing, nothing is wrong!" She ran into our room and shut the door. Ughh.
I walked into the room and saw her on her laptop. As soon as she saw me she shut her laptop and looked at me.
I grabbed her laptop but she grabbed it back. I pulled it away from her and she tried to tackle me but she's so weak.
Okay maybe she is a bit strong but you know. I opened her laptop. She was on twitter. Wait. I saw all the comments.
Maybe hat's whats bothering her. No shit Justin that is what's bothering her. "Alli?" She turned her head away from me.
"Alli. I didn't know." I grabbed her by the waist and put her on top of me. "Alli. Don't listen to them, their just not used to me having a girlfriend. Come on Alli. You gotta bare with me." She cried into my chest. "Okay. but only for you."
I cradled her and tried to put her to sleep. But she just cries to much. I know how sensitive she is.
Later on she finally fell asleep. I put her head on the pillow and tucked her in. I grabbed her wrists to put them in a comfortable, but she flinched.
I lifted her sleeves up. Her left arm had bandages. I took her bandages off and saw 4 cuts, in a straight line. Please say I don't think what I think it is. She cuts.
I walked out of my room. Did my fans do this? I love my fans, I love Alli. But I can't have both can I? If they keep this going Alli will leave me eventually. But if Alli and I keep dating my fans will leave too. So either way their both going to be gone.
But I love them both so much