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Never Loved
Story published October 19, 2012 · updated 10 months ago · completed · 84 pages · 16,237 readers · 145,832 reads
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I waited backstage anxiously as I waited for my number to be called. I was auditioning for the X-Factor. I wanted this so badly, singing is the only thing I have left, this could be my big break that I've been waiting for. I didn't want to come in the first place though, because I thought I'd never get in anyways, but Sandy- one of the people that runs the home, and my best friend that is also at the home convinced me I should so, here I was.
I was an orphan, or I am. My parents left me there when I was a baby. I imagine they didn't want me, but I can't say I wouldn't know why. I have never been adopted for a reason, and that's just it. I've either been too old enough for their liking, or they just didn't feel it with me. And I was probably not going to get in anyway. The second the judges see me they would already have their answer: No.
But my parents didn't matter anymore, not right now. I remember all those lonely nights where I would cry myself to sleep because I wanted a family, I wanted loving parents, I wanted to be a family. But as I grew up I accepted the fact that I have no family. But singing is something I've done since I can remember, and now I'm going for my dreams. That is if I don't get turned down.
Now I'm even more nervous about the whole thing. I should have never agreed to this. Maybe I'm not too late to just walk out of here like nothing happened. Sandy and Elizabeth were right here with me to make sure I didn't chicken out, but I was chickening out. 
The girl ahead of me had seemee pretty sure, but cockiness was her weakness. she came out of the stage sobbing. Oh god. I can't do this. The poor girl came here for her dream to become a reality and now its crushed. I felt a pain in my stomach. What if that happened to me? I would never be able to live it down. 
I was going to make a run for it. I wanted to, at least. I turned around and was going to start walking away when someone grabbed my shoulder. I turned around and it was a guy with a uniform. It was the stage manager. 
"The judges are ready for you," he said. Oh god I can't do this. I looked over my shoulder and saw Sandy and Liz grinning like idiots and giving me a thumbs up. I returned a nervous smile. 
I made my way to the stage all the lights turned to me. All the attention was on me making my way to the front of the stage, in front of all the judges. I bet I was shaking, I could feel it. Once I finally made it I saw the faces of the three judges that would either give me a chance to make my dreams come true, or the  people who would brake me forever.
Simon, Cher, and Demi.
"Hello, love whats your name?" Cher asked smiling.
"Hi, I'm Katelyn. How are you?" I asked my voice shaking. 
"I'm good how are you?" She asked politely. 
"Honestly really nervous," I said truthfully. I bet they could see my poor chicken legs shaking.
"You'll do fine love, how old are you?"
"I'm 16," I responded. I looked at Simom and Demi. They seemed tired, tense whereof Cher looked calm, still full of energy. 
"Wow pretty young huh?" I nodded.
"What will you be singing?" Demi asked. I changed my view to her. She seemed really tense. I was really intimidated now.
"Oh . . . I'll um, be singing Wake Me Up." 
"Alright good luck." Simon nodded. Thanks, I thought. I'm going to need it.
"Feeling my way through the darkness. . ." I started. The guitar strums holding me through the rythm of the song. "So wake me up when its all over. . .
"When I'm wiser and I'm older. . ."
When I finished the crowd erupted in claps. I felt my stomach drop, in a good way. This finally felt real, it felt nice, it all being for me.
"Wow that was amazing!" Cher complimented. I smiled.
"Thank you so much!" I replied. 
"Truly amazing," Simon said. "Okay, Cher. What do you say?
"Its going to be an absolute yes!" she grinned. I smiled
"Demi?" Simon said. 
"Yes," sh sai smiling for the first time.
"Congratulations, Katelyn. Its a yes, you have three yeses!" Simon exclaimed.
"Thank you!" I said. "Thank you so much!"
My legs wobbled backstage. Calm down, I told myself. I found Liz and Sandy right by the door.
"Congrats!" grinned Liz, hugging me. 
"I'm so proud of you!" she gave me a big bear hug. Sandy was like a mother to me, but sometimes I just think shes only doing it because I'm an orphan and/or because she has to and its her job to take care of me.
"We told you, you were amazing!" said Liz still grinning like an idiot.
Now I couldn't stop smiling. I felt like o was flying. It felt sensational, like I was on drugs. It made me happy.
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