My life used to involve me being faithful. Not hurt.
My life used to be me facing my fears. Not being in fear.
My life used to involve me enjoying everything in life.
Not feeling broken, which I am sure must have felt like endless hours.
At those times it seemed that all was well.
Sometimes I try to remember what my life used to be like,
but it's been so long ago that I can't... barely.
I remember Mother telling me to help her serve the rest of my family.
Father always making us laugh through anything.
Brother Ashton always making me smile and reminding me
that I should always help mother with my sisters.
How I would always play outside with them and drink tea until late in the evening.
It's hard to forget someone who has meant so much in life.
At times I feel like I am broken.
No matter if it's day or night, sunny or rainy... there is no cure to mend my broken heart.
I know I have changed forever and there is no going back. Those days are gone forever... I am no longer cured.
~ Jelissa Lovelace Janes